#14

“Suffering feels religious if you do it right.”

-from Chelsea Hodson, from Tonight I’m Someone Else: Essays, “The End of Longing.”

It’s like a ritual, its like an offering, its like a prayer.

It’s like the only thing I deserve to do when it gets to this point again.

I don’t let myself stop until somebody tells me i need to.

But thats a rare occurrence.

I don’t know if anyone will even notice today.

Should I keep going?

Does it matter?